Fallen off the wagon.

Guys, I have fallen off the wagon. 😦

Being in Delaware, as usual when I’m on a diet, has set me back in my weightloss ‘Journey to Sexy.’ It has a lot to do with how my father has run the household since we were kids: he was a single parent, I went to school in the city (30 mins from home), my dad got out of work late and we often ate out… needless to say, such a habit has continued into my adult years. I have found the only way effective for me to lose weight is to stay my ass in New York.

Anyway, it brings me regret to inform you I have gained back the weight I lost. This fact makes me sad, but it also gives me encouragement to take my ass back home and work twice as hard to get it off. On Monday, it will be 2 weeks before I must return to school, in which time I plan to lose close to 20lbs. I know my body, and I know for a fact that as soon as I get back to NY and go back to how I was regularly eating (under 2,000 calories per day [non-diet]) I will drop 5lbs, trust me, I’ve been struggling with my weight for years, I know what I’m talking about. From there, I will then work my ass off to lose the last 15 (roughlt 7lbs per week) until school.

This is my own fault. I knew I wanted to go back to school, start a new semester, and see old friends (and rivals…?) a new girl, of which I intend to do. I can’t wait to fit back into my old jeans I can’t even express to you :(. My favorite jeans with the flower pockets decoration on the inside of the jeans… do you know how many hotties I got wearing those jeans? lol.

Anyway, some thinspiration photos of MYSELF (screw other women who have already done their thing!) to get back down to my old weight before I do the long super haul to 125! Give me some words of encouragement! Just yesterday I FINALLY stopped being a scared little bitch and bought the electronic scale… as hard as it’s going to be to see the truth (it’s more accurate), it’s something I need to see. I need to know the gravity of the situation.

Please understand, I was never some skinny bitch (though I will be someday SOON! :D), but I was a lot smaller than I am now. Smaller and happier. These pictures are from around 2-2.5 years ago.

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About rainonmebi

21, living in New York City making videos and living life to the fullest capacity. View all posts by rainonmebi

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