This is one of my favorite shirts and it’s actually one that I stole from my cousin lol. For some reason most of my favorite shirts tend to be busted old t-shirts; I don’t know maybe it’s because they fit the best. Anyway, I wore this when I went to the gym a few hours ago and felt the need to take a picture of it before I went down (notice my bikini in the top lol). NO Goals, NO Glory.
Well people, I FINALLY have started working out again, which is simply embarassing to say because THERE IS A 24/7 GYM IN MY BUILDING. I hadn’t gone regularly working out since October, which was the last time I was on a diet (before this run). I stopped going and gave up on my diet and on myself for a minute because I was so obsessed with losing weight that I would be intaking very low calories and working out too damn much. I had read you can work out too much, but I didn’t believe it. I mean I’d be in the gym like, 2-3 hours every day just fucking going. And it got to a point where I wasn’t losing any weight no matter the fact that I was eating well. I now reckon that I was probably turning fat into muscle, therefore my non-weightloss and even weight gain. Long story short, I got off the diet and got back to my highest weight again (which I had peaked the beginning of my senior year in HS). After HS I lost a lot of weight, met a boy, he broke my heart and I lost myself for a minute. I was back in business a few months later but had still lost some confidence, not to mention my move to my aunts house where I proceeded to gain 20lbs. Sigh.
I don’t know why I titled this post that, but it probably has a lot to do with that being the song I’m listening to right now lol. I have this playlist I just listen to over and over again from youtube. It’s got some good stuff in it. Anyway, this post isn’t about music, it’s an update on my weightloss and whatnot.
Things are going great! Still satisfied with these scale numbers and I have increased my physical activity from just walking around school to playing DDR and when I go to the city, opt for walking instead of the train. I still haven’t caved into eating crap (maybe that has to do with the fact that I haven’t hung out with Camille in the city for 2 weeks lol) since the last time. Did I mention that I actually did go to Cold Stone a week after I almost caved and I did get the Caramel Churro Crave thingy? I know, poor me, but happily to say, it wasn’t as good as I had thought it would be so I won’t be going back to get another. One thing I have been craving though is Haagen Dazs dulce split dazzler omg… Bananas, caramel, I usually get nuts on it, whip cream all over dulce de leche ice cream OMG. *Dies* Maybe I’ll get it in 2 weeks, which is when I should meet my first half-goal.
Why am I always talking about food? Lol. Anways, I went to the museum the other day and got to take some AMAZINGLY awesome pictures! I will post them in a post after this under “Photography” stuff.
Now what I’m supposed to be doing right now is homework. I got class on Wednesday (tomorrow) and I wanted to get a head start on my homework so I’m not doing the crap at the last minute as per usual, especially considering I need to make a video tomorrow.
But, right now, I’m hungry. I’m very hungry. And I’m thinking about food. Above is just a pic I took of some Korean banchan, but below I shall murder all of you and make your mouth water for FOOD. I love late night eating, to bad those days are LONG over! You want to know what my biggest problem is–I love junk food. It does my heart good (well not literally) to eat CRAP. I grew up eating junk food and to this day I enjoy it very much, it’s my conscience that makes me feel bad about it.
Check these delicious meals out after the jump! I forgot to put tacos in here but oh well.
Sup guys, I’m currently on the LIRR right now and decided, why not make a post…? And I’m doing all of this from my cell phone, isn’t technology crazy??
Anyway, my thinspiration arrived today: my bikini! It’s even cuter in person and I tried it on and guess what? I LOOKED TERRIBLE IN IT!!! Does that sound like I’m happy about it? Lol well I’m not but it gave me that extra “mmph!” to go on. I was happy with the numbers on the scale today and I’m perfectly on schedule (at this point) for my March 7th goal. I set loose weekly mini-goals but the first landmark is March 7th.
I hung up the bikini on my full-length mirror (which is by the fridge) so I can keep my eyes on the prize. I’ll see it every time I go over to the fridge and every time I leave to go out.
Oh and not to worry all, I know I’m very vague about my weight/pants size/etc and haven’t posted pics but that’s just for right now. Know that I HAVE been documenting my weight loss journey with pictures AND video that of course at the end of all this I will make a compilation video (and probably a super long how-to post) so hopefully I can inspire someone else to be the best of themselves they can be. Hey who knows? I could be someones extra last little shove to lose the weight.
Last night Camille showed me a pic of this girl she knew (and I knew vaguely too) and the girl used to be big and she lost AT LEAST 50lbs! I was seriously like W:OW when I saw her. Just more fuel to the fire! If she can do it, so can I and so can YOU!!!!
I almost lost my shit today.
I was in the Atlantic Mall applying places and looking for places to apply today so I could get another job (if you know anywhere, let a sista know!!) and as I was leaving I saw one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen… Cold Stone’s Churro Caramel Cave. I almost lost it. No. NO. You don’t understand. I walked by the place twice, the first time I tried to get away as fast as possible as soon as I saw that fucking thing. OMG it has 3 of my #1 FAVORITE sweet things…
- I LOVE CARAMEL. CARAMEL PWNS CHOCOLATE ANY DAY.
- I LOVE CHURROS. MMM YUM. NOTHING BETTER THEN FRIED BREAD COVERED IN COPIOUS AMOUNT OF SUGAR AND CINNAMON.
- I LOVE WHIP CREAM. SWEET AND LIGHT.
But no jokes, the first time I walked away then somehow I ended back over by that stupid fucking store and I stared blindly at the sign LITERALLY for close to a minute. That doesn’t sound long? Well then get off the computer, go over to the wall and stare at it for an entire minute–that’s a long ass fucking time! This heaping pile of heaven Continue reading
Maybe I shouldn’t even waste my time?
I got a lot of comments and messages from people telling me I shouldn’t have even wasted my time making a video response to this guy
Testicle Testizel who had started shit with me on Youtube, to be honest with you, I didn’t see it coming at all. I think that he just wanted to make a video about something and TOTALLY blew what I said out of proportion, not to mention his totally fabricating and LITERALLY making up things “I said” to support his weak arguement. I hate stupid people.
After I made my response video, he couldn’t rebuttle anything that I said at all and of course again he made everything I did say (those few points he adressed) seem really over done and blown out of proportion. One thing in particular, the fact that he called me “Mrs. Rain” which he SPECIFICALLY said in his 1st video then in his 2nd video said he didnt say that, so, what did I do? I went back and listened to his video again and sure enough he called me “Mrs. Rain.” 바보야! Continue reading
So tomorrow I start back my diet again, wish me luck!
I will be pounding pavement once again, from Chinatown to 42nd street, though I’ll likely be going to 49th. I’ve got a fridge full of healthy foods and disposed of all garbage.