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Where Have I Been?

Where have I been?

I HAVE BEEN ON TUMBLR. Lol. I haven’t been really doing blog posts over there but I have been there. It’s a lot of fun to post pictures and reblog other peoples stuff. Also, people post pics of themselves in cool outfits and I like reblogging photos of celebrities I like, women I admire, men who I find delicious and my favorite, to post old pictures from movies and stills from the 20s-60s. I love that era in case you didn’t know.

I also post MJ stuff, Rain stuff, people doing the nasty or getting ready to 😛 and maybe even the random picture of myself. If you’re on there follow me and leave your links in a comment so I can follow you, okay?! You can also ask me questions on there, anonymous or signed in! 😀

http://lostcitymedia.tumblr.com/

PS You like me gif I made? My shirt is awesome, it says “If You’re Not Wasted, the Day Is.”

trufax.

Convos with Camille #3

 Liz  2:38 am
    the one of hitler i laughed pretty hard too

 Liz 2:39 am
    eating a watermelon
    his arm movements

fallon***** 2:39 am

    and he probably did love watermelon
    shit
    lol
    why was he being so dramatic

Liz 2:39 am

    no idea!
    he was always a drama queen.
    look at the holocaust.

fallon***** 2:39 am

    he was definitely gay.

Drink Responsibly.

Ha! Yeah, right. I apparently don’t know the meaning of the phrase. Not in the drunk driving sense, but in the drink responsibly and don’t do things you’re going to regret or be embarrassed about the next day sense.

It’s only been in recent weeks that I’ve gotten back into the whole “drinking thing.” As much as I may regret it the next day, I can’t lie, I have TOO MUCH fun drinking and partying with friends oh man lol. The past 2 weekends I’ve had some pretty epic hang-outs.

Sigh. I have so much on my mind right now though. Last night (or should I say this morning?) I had a really horrible dream, which involved me being kidnapped and being taken to this… house type of thing where I was forced to live a certain way, talk a certain way and I couldn’t talk to my friends or family or get help. I was stuck in this place. I tried to yell but I couldn’t, it was horrible. More of a nightmare then a dream. And for some reason there was smoke/steam  everywhere. Maybe I’ll look it up in the dream dictionary…. Okay, I just looked up some stuff (what kidnapping means, what smoke and steam mean, calling for help etc) and… lol. That’s really all I’m going to say about that.

I’m feeling very… out-of-body and confused right now. Ever have something happen that you know you can’t talk to anyone about and you just feel like you’re going to explode? I mean literally, your chest feels like it’s going to explode.

I hate this. I forgot about this feeling. And to think I actually missed it? Lol. Boy was I wrong.

Ah well in other news, I started updating my Tumblr again. You can check it here: http://lostcitymedia.tumblr.com/

Follow me and drop your link in a comment.

Tattoos… I want them.

This girl is so fucking bad ass.

Minus the skull in the middle of her chest an the tats on her hands and fingers, you don’t know how bad I wish I could get something like this! Unfortunately, society usually frowns upon individuality and if I had a tattoo like this, most straight men would probably think me a lesbian. Shame.

I do want a sleeve though, but if I do, it will probably end up being a half-sleeve. The following tattoos that I will post are fucking beautiful, beautiful. I would love to have something like this.

Hipster from HELL.

I know you’re probably like, what in the hell is a “hipster from hell.” Well… I’m too lazy to write it here but maybe Camille and I will explain it in a video… Speaking of which, I’d appreciate it if you went to OUR CHANNEL HERE and subscribed! Yes, of course you know I had to do a shameless plug. I should also mention a H.f.H is NOT a real hipster! Quite the opposite really!

Anyway, look at my new shoes! I got them from Strawberry. I went there to look at their rain boots considering it’s supposed to rain a lot which is extremely fucking annoying. I didn’t end up getting the rain boots because they didn’t fit over my bare calves properly and so I knew they wouldn’t fit over my calve with jeans properly. A minor set back–we’ll get there. Honestly, with all the weight that I lose I don’t think my calves will ever get the size I want them to. My father has always had large calves (even when he was younger and fit), and I have them as well. I think I will have to have them botoxed to get the look I really desire. Sigh. Add it to my list of PS lol.

So. What do you think of my boots? You rike? I went off on a tangent about calves, but these were the next best shoes I could find that would keep away rain. They are very hipsterish, no? I think they will look good with skinny jeans. I still don’t know how to tie them properly. 😛

Giving Up.

As I’m sure with any dieter who is doing a significant/major weightloss, which I consider to be 30lbs+, you always get into those “funks” of, “I don’t know how much longer I can do this” or “Why bother? I’m never gonna look like ‘her’” or even just, “holy shit, I want to binge on some good ‘ole American junk food!”; for me it’s a combination of all 3. I hate to get on here and continually talk about my weightloss, seeing as the goal of this blog was to incorporate other aspects of my life like school, Youtube for sure, photography and internet stuff, but this stuff plagues me and I want to talk about it.

I, at this point in my weightloss, have loss a total of 26lbs since January 31st. I’d be lying to you if I said I didn’t have my slip-ups over those 2 months, but for the most part I have been very good. I’m at the point now where I can have someone (usually the kids in my class lol) sit right next to me with a deliciously smelling plate of Chinese food or Halal and not feel the need to run right to the restaurant/stand as soon as class lets out, or even at all. Anyway, I was in a bit of a funk today, I had come to that point of, “how much more of this can I take?”

This is the worst kind of fatness: fatness of the mind. I have fat, but I don’t consider myself a fat girl and neither do most people; I’m almost always described as thick, which in all honesty is a word that disgusts me to the bone. Goal numero uno: have a body type that cannot be described as thick! Lol. I hate that fucking word, its grosses me out. Anyway, the fatness of the mind. I feel like MSG and junk food eating is apart of my genetic make-up now (lol) from all the years of poor eating. You know how celebrities on the road and college students, eating out all the time, say all they wish they could have is a home-cooked meal? Yeah, well all I wish I could have is some mega fries from Nino’s with hot-wings, NYC style pizza and sweet tea. I probably sound psycho right now.

Sigh. It may seem like I’m giving up, but no, I’m just venting–I’m too far in to give up now. I’m almost half-way there! Fitting into my old jeans, getting hit on by hotties last weekend at my friends b-day, seeing my grandmother who was  literally like, “wow, you look reallll good Elizabeth!” are all things that are propelling me to go on. More recently, as in, 30-minutes ago, I had another swift, kick in the ass of thinspiration: a picture of an old friend of mine from HS caught my eye on Facebook. Girl lost so much weight (probably 35lbs or so) and she looks so fucking good. She was always a pretty girl but my Lord! If she can do it, I can do it, if she can go from really pretty girl to hot I can go from… whatever I am to hot.

Well, that’s all. /End rant. Guys, gals, don’t give up!

Chris Brown….

…I love you. 😦

Lol. BUT SRS. I was waiting until SAW was over to post these pics but never got around to it… NOW I AM. WHY IS HE SO HOT?? WHY? ANSWER DAMN IT! I NEED TO KNOW!

The real reason that propelled me to post this though is that he was in a dream I had the night before last. I was on my way to meet him up at my aunts house. I’m pretty sure he was in my dream because I read an article about him somewhere shortly before I went to sleep but yeah, HES MY NEW CRUSH FOR THE MOMENT, LULZ.

I hate saying I have a type but I gotta be honest man, I DO. I sooooo do and Chris is a PRIME example of my type. He got the sleeves, ear pierced, nice body, nice skin, he wears fitted’s and has an alternative style and then he bleached his hair YUMMM! Lol. SRS. When I saw his new hair I was seriously like :O LOVE. I always thought he was hot but that just took the cake. But yeah… my type: Chris Brown lol. Another example would be John Mayer<3, Pharell, Eminem. I love guys with tattoos ❤ the more the better! (Unless you’re like Lil’ Wayne who is just appalling).

Body Rant

This is one of my favorite shirts and it’s actually one that I stole from my cousin lol. For some reason most of my favorite shirts tend to be busted old t-shirts; I don’t know maybe it’s because they fit the best. Anyway, I wore this when I went to the gym a few hours ago and felt the need to take a picture of it before I went down (notice my bikini in the top lol). NO Goals, NO Glory.

Damn straight.

Well people, I FINALLY have started working out again, which is simply embarassing to say because THERE IS A 24/7 GYM IN MY BUILDING. I hadn’t gone regularly working out since October, which was the last time I was on a diet (before this run). I stopped going and gave up on my diet and on myself for a minute because I was so obsessed with losing weight that I would be intaking very low calories and working out too damn much. I had read you can work out too much, but I didn’t believe it. I mean I’d be in the gym like, 2-3 hours every day just fucking going. And it got to a point where I wasn’t losing any weight no matter the fact that I was eating well. I now reckon that I was probably turning fat into muscle, therefore my non-weightloss and even weight gain. Long story short, I got off the diet and got back to my highest weight again (which I had peaked the beginning of my senior year in HS). After HS I lost a lot of weight, met a boy, he broke my heart and I lost myself for a minute. I was back in business a few months later but had still lost some confidence, not to mention my move to my aunts house where I proceeded to gain 20lbs. Sigh.

Convos With Camille #2

fallon***** 5:24 am
lol
haha
derp!
why arent you sleeping

Liz 5:25 am
idk
im applying places on CL
sick of not having a job 

fallon***** 5:25 am
me too 

fallon***** 5:26 am
i mean im also sick of being broke and jobless
lol
wanna suck some dick for a couple bucks? 

Liz 5:26 am
yeah
LOL WUT
no! 

fallon***** 5:26 am
LOL!
LOL!!!!
LOOL 

Liz 5:26 am
i said yeah to the thing before 

fallon**** 5:26 am
LOL!!!
next time we’re in chinatown
let’s make shit happen